10TH OCTOBER..

10TH OCTOBER
1:15am…uploaded mah blog 2dy…SAM replied 2dy…hoped 4 a mre personal mail…well..u sudnt xpct…the more u xpct the more hurt u get..SANJ cld up 2dy..lykd tlkin 2 her..ahem…so-o-o--o-o-o-o-o-o…man…DG's in a bit of trouble..mayb cuz of me…I cld up n hr dad pckd up d cl…so lyk..jus aborted the lyn..man admire her dad a lot..he's really a gr8 man..a really noble n good man…unlike her..hahaha…WISH I cud b wid her…man miss her a lot…well..i can wish…wish as much as I want to..no1 can stop me…cuz they r my wish..i dnt care,whether they cum true or not..its my freedom..but stl I wish..i wish there was sumbdy..to tell me tht…tht I am not alone in this feelin…tht there is more than what meets the eye..tht the evergreen ghost still lives …sumwhere above wtchin us…so dt I can wait..wait 4 tht sum1…so tht I hv sum1 who asks me how I am evry dy…tellin me tht I can make up to the life that I hv long lost…I kno I am not perfect..but neither is ne1 else…the fct is tht I hv lost mah dreams…lost sumwhr in the transition b'ween the pain n sorrow,the hurt,the feelings…the feelings wch swells up evrytym I look up at the clear blue skies wid the uncountable stars all above n all the uncharted territory yet unknown to man…n wishing every star wid 1 wish..evrytym…I wish 4 her…I tch mah heart…n insyd mah heart I feel the emptiness..wch HURTS in the beginning,then it feels lyk SORROW…then the feeling of VOID n then the feeling…the all pervaiding feeling of LOSS..but inside…inside the hollow cld heart…wen sumtyms I peep in…there's sumthng cld tears wch I shed alone…wen none of the prying eyes see me…alone so tht…I can hide n try to live an empty life in a more astute emptiness…